I went house hunting today. I actually (and amazingly) got pre-qualified for a loan. Say a little prayer that I'll find a quaint little house.
Looking back, as a 16 year old, I thought by 26 I'd be married, in a beautiful house with a kid on the way, with a job (in my field that I love). Well, I finally nailed the job. Now on to the other things. Why is it we dream so big when we're young? And why is it that no one tells us that life will probably not go exactly as we planned?
Do I wish someone had told me that? Probably not. I wouldn't have believed them anyway. 10 years ago, I was so bright eyed and optimistic. That's not to say that I'm not optimistic now. I'm just a bit more realistic and cautious. After life has thrown me a few curve balls- you begin to tip toe through life just expecting something else to happen.
Wish this first time homebuyer some luck!!
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Back in my day...
I had a conversation with someone about old school computers today. We laughed hysterically over floppy disks, MS Dos, Oregon Trail, etc. It really is crazy how quickly things catch on, evolve and just take over. Facebook was invented while I was in college (by a guy my age- depressing, I know). It evolved so quickly and now even my grandmom has a Facebook page!
I lived for a game called Quink. It was a HUGE floppy disk. It only consisted of one color, green, and was incredibly simple. In 1992- it was mind blowing! If I showed that to a kid today, they would laugh in my face. Who remembers Prodigy? Encarta? The Incredible Machine? Dial up internet??!!
I know folks older than me have me beat with Atari and no computers whatsoever, but still I feel pretty old. I literally used the phrase "Back in my day..." today. At what age does it become a phrase you are comfortable using? Soon, I'll be referring to 21 year olds as whipper snappers and telling stories about how I had to walk to school in the snow, up hill both ways.
This made me think about how life has changed in the past 10 years. Stress, responsibilities, bills... none of these things existed. My "stress" was grades, my "responsibilities" were homework and a part time job and "bills" were non-existent. I will be a stereotypical girly girl and refer to Sex and the City-
I lived for a game called Quink. It was a HUGE floppy disk. It only consisted of one color, green, and was incredibly simple. In 1992- it was mind blowing! If I showed that to a kid today, they would laugh in my face. Who remembers Prodigy? Encarta? The Incredible Machine? Dial up internet??!!
I know folks older than me have me beat with Atari and no computers whatsoever, but still I feel pretty old. I literally used the phrase "Back in my day..." today. At what age does it become a phrase you are comfortable using? Soon, I'll be referring to 21 year olds as whipper snappers and telling stories about how I had to walk to school in the snow, up hill both ways.
This made me think about how life has changed in the past 10 years. Stress, responsibilities, bills... none of these things existed. My "stress" was grades, my "responsibilities" were homework and a part time job and "bills" were non-existent. I will be a stereotypical girly girl and refer to Sex and the City-
 "When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?" ~ Carrie Bradshaw |
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
I laugh at inappropriate jokes
I am sitting here watching Tosh.O right now and if you've ever seen it- you know how wildly inappropriate it can be. However, here I am, cracking up. I find that my best friends have the same sense of humor. Sarcastic, silly and sometimes simply not right.
I recently had a conversation with someone who told me they hated the movie "Stepbrothers"because it made them feel uncomfortable. First of all, couldn't you tell by the trailer that it would involve some sick humor? Second, if you are easily offended, steer clear of R-rated movies because you know you will most likely cringe throughout the whole movie. I responded by saying "I love it. I own it." A fellow teacher agreed and we laughed over quotes from the movie.
Personally, I love being able to say I am hardly offended by anything. I love a good laugh and chances are, those silly movies have some aspect of reality and you can relate. Who doesn't laugh when Zach Galifianakis says "He practically bankrupt a casino and he was a ra-tard."?? That is so politically incorrect but makes me laugh every time.
Am I a horrible person for laughing at things like that? I am one of over ONE MILLION people who have joined "Sarcasm Society" on Facebook. The motto of the website is "To evangelize sarcasm and promote it as an art form." I kind of love that.
I work with kids and do have to control my sarcasm on a daily basis. It has also gotten me into trouble from time to time. Mainly, I'm sarcastic and I like it.
I recently had a conversation with someone who told me they hated the movie "Stepbrothers"because it made them feel uncomfortable. First of all, couldn't you tell by the trailer that it would involve some sick humor? Second, if you are easily offended, steer clear of R-rated movies because you know you will most likely cringe throughout the whole movie. I responded by saying "I love it. I own it." A fellow teacher agreed and we laughed over quotes from the movie.
Personally, I love being able to say I am hardly offended by anything. I love a good laugh and chances are, those silly movies have some aspect of reality and you can relate. Who doesn't laugh when Zach Galifianakis says "He practically bankrupt a casino and he was a ra-tard."?? That is so politically incorrect but makes me laugh every time.
Am I a horrible person for laughing at things like that? I am one of over ONE MILLION people who have joined "Sarcasm Society" on Facebook. The motto of the website is "To evangelize sarcasm and promote it as an art form." I kind of love that.
I work with kids and do have to control my sarcasm on a daily basis. It has also gotten me into trouble from time to time. Mainly, I'm sarcastic and I like it.
Monday, January 31, 2011
The Two A's
I'm not quite sure why I decided to start a blog. Maybe it's to organize my thoughts, maybe it's to share my craziness with others. Whatever the reason... here goes.
My 26 years in this world have been wildly affected by "the two A's"- anxiety and addiction.
Anxiety became a part of my life around the age of eight. I didn't know why but I began having anxiety attacks (at that age I had no idea what was happening). Through high school these attacks took a horrible toll on me. Trying to understand why, how to control it, how to hide it, etc. If any of you have ever had an anxiety attack you can relate to the horrors. It took a very long time to establish a sense of "normalcy." Anxiety disorders tend to make a sufferer feel a constant need for control. In this crazy world, there is no such thing. Now, at 26, I can proudly say my anxiety is under control. Obviously, it will always be something I live with but it is not a predominant part of me any longer.
I became personally affected (or as I look at it, injured) by addiction around the age of 19 when my younger brother's drug addiction rose to the surface. Dealing with addiction in your family is an unbelievable roller coaster of emotions. At any point during the day I would be sad, angry, confused, but mostly terrified. Why him? Why us? "Everything happens for a reason" becomes a personal attack. If that's true, why in the HELL is this happening?
My family has been dealing with this for years now and every single day brings different emotions. Some days are joyful and hopeful while others days bring pure fear. I know this, like anxiety, will be a lifelong struggle. Just because I know that doesn't mean I've accepted it.
My 26 years in this world have been wildly affected by "the two A's"- anxiety and addiction.
Anxiety became a part of my life around the age of eight. I didn't know why but I began having anxiety attacks (at that age I had no idea what was happening). Through high school these attacks took a horrible toll on me. Trying to understand why, how to control it, how to hide it, etc. If any of you have ever had an anxiety attack you can relate to the horrors. It took a very long time to establish a sense of "normalcy." Anxiety disorders tend to make a sufferer feel a constant need for control. In this crazy world, there is no such thing. Now, at 26, I can proudly say my anxiety is under control. Obviously, it will always be something I live with but it is not a predominant part of me any longer.
I became personally affected (or as I look at it, injured) by addiction around the age of 19 when my younger brother's drug addiction rose to the surface. Dealing with addiction in your family is an unbelievable roller coaster of emotions. At any point during the day I would be sad, angry, confused, but mostly terrified. Why him? Why us? "Everything happens for a reason" becomes a personal attack. If that's true, why in the HELL is this happening?
My family has been dealing with this for years now and every single day brings different emotions. Some days are joyful and hopeful while others days bring pure fear. I know this, like anxiety, will be a lifelong struggle. Just because I know that doesn't mean I've accepted it.
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